Farewell

What an emotionally difficult day. Everything with the move and going to church, I'm exhausted and frustrated. We went hometeaching tonight for our last time as a companionship, and it was hard. It has honestly been such a pleasure to get to know these girls and I don't know if they'll still be under my care next month.. and for the first time in my life I could look someone in the eye and say "I hope you know we love you" and really mean it without all that relationship stuff in the way. One of the girls bore her testimony today and mentioned she's had a hard week and had to lean on her roommate cuz her faith wasn't strong enough, and my heart broke and for one of the few times in my life I was more concerned about someone other than myself. I was able to tell them some of my story and how amazed I am at what the lord can do with "even the least of these thy brethren" and thank them for helping me to grow even though they didn't know it, just by their amazing examples. Outside of family I don't think I've ever had a relationship like that. And though it's hard to be emotionally involved and it's hard to let someone in and care about someone else, I don't think I would trade it for anything. Sad that I'm 26 (almost 27) and just now learning how to be a friend, and how to let people be friends with me. Yes, so an emotional day, but a good day.... a good day.